Lazy Days

I love my lazy weekends. Love them. They are few and far in between, but oh so wonderful. I like the thought of sleeping until all hours of the morning (even though I rarely do), instead of jolting out of bed at 6:13 every morning. Staying in my nightgown all day and not caring. Meandering around the house, picking up, cleaning up. Watching lots of worthless TV. Taking cat naps all day.

Before I had kids, I could spend all weekend in the house and never step foot outside. I would sleep until noon and do whatever I felt like all day. I had two loads of laundry to do, towels & undies, since I wore business attire most of the time and it was dry clean only. I didn't have to cook. No one drug a thousand toys into the living room for me to trip over. No one screamed at the mere sight of the vacuum cleaner. Life was so great, so I thought.

Now, of course, things have changed. Every once in a while, DH will wake up and dress the boys and take them outside. I relish those days of even a couple hours of extra sleep. I have mouths to feed and diapers to change and children to clothe, cleaning to do, laundry to clean, fold and put away. I have soccer games to attend, birthday parties and lots of other things taking away those precious weekend hours.

This past weekend was a lazy weekend, I hung out in the house all day. I sat on the floor and played with The Shadow for hours. I held him instead of putting him in his crib for a nap and took a nap of my own, drifting to sleep while smelling his sweet little head. I was right there for all of the kisses and hugs he was willing to give. He was quite generous! I sat back and realized that I don't have much more time for this, these precious weekends with my babies. Soon the chaos will begin. Soon I will have another precious little one to share my time with. I can't wait, but I really want to spend every hour I can just "being" with my boys. My time with JJ is already so limited. He is such a busy outside boy and I'm not going to begrudge him that time and make him hang out with mom. He did buy himself a Game Boy this weekend, so I spent a while teaching him the strategies of Mario Bros. Now there is something daddy can't do!!

This time made me think. Do I really want a girl? Like, if I could choose right now, what would I choose? Then I realized it doesn't matter. All our family will need to be complete is a healthy baby. Whether he wear his brothers hand me downs or she gets lots of pretty dresses and hair bows, when we hold this precious bundle in our arms, our family will be complete.

And my weekends will be full of so much joy.